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New diet: feeding tubes for weightloss
A while back I posted about the hCG diet, and how I thought it was the most disturbing diet trend I’ve ever heard. Believe it or not, yesterday I found one that seems to top that: feeding tubes. Photo...
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Repeat after me:
My mantra lately is this: Don’t let the mind bully the body. When I find myself pinching and squeezing at what I perceive to be fat: Don’t let the mind bully the body. When I feel the urge to act on...
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What I learned from a burlesque show
Last night I went to a burlesque cabaret with my sister and a couple of girlfriends and we had a blast. The dancers were awesome, the live band had us dancing in our seats, and the crowd was...
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Yesterday’s weigh-in and the realizations that followed
Wednesdays are always tense at intensive outpatient because it’s a weigh-in day. Stepping on the scale midday while fully clothed and full from breakfast and lunch is guaranteed to show some weight...
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Time for an angry nap.
I stayed up all night to watch the sun come up, the light spilling across the sky as though some celestial elbow had knocked into the sun, tipping it over. It was pretty and calming; I contemplated it...
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What doesn’t kill you makes you Strong(H)er
Sunday was the Baltimore NEDA Walk, where I walked with a group of women from treatment as well as a couple of my family members; we called ourselves StrongHer. I couldn’t be more proud of my team –...
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Shamed into silence: men with eating disorders
“Guys just don’t get it,” he said, fidgeting in his chair. “When I tell a guy friend about my eating disorder they say, ‘Come on, dude. That’s a girl thing.’ They don’t understand, so I don’t tell...
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Leaving scales to the fish
Last week started out Shitty with a capital “S,” and all because of a dumb number. I got weighed that Tuesday and it brought me down for days. I mean I knew beforehand that I had probably gained in...
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Celebrating 10 months sober~*
“You never had a problem with alcohol,” a friend once scoffed. “Everyone drinks a lot in high school and college. You weren’t any different.” I’ve struggled with substance abuse for years and hearing...
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Feeling ‘less than’
Today has been one of those days where I wish I were invisible. Walking to class this morning, I kept my eyes down, not bearing to look in the faces of Everyone Else, the Ones Better Off. I wanted to...
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Bummer mood
This weekend I’ve been marinating in such a downer mood. It’s not that I didn’t have a good weekend – I spent time with lovely people, did some dogsitting, watched a Snapped marathon – but the...
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So I tried Zumba…
On Friday I went to my first-ever Zumba class, held on my college campus. Before going, I really wasn’t sure what to expect. I knew it was a dancey, aerobicsy thing set to loud music but that was...
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Veet’s terrible new advertising campaign: “Don’t Risk Dudeness”
The popular hair removal company Veet premiered a new series of commercials on Monday that are both sexist AND body-shaming. (Homophobia and racial stereotyping make an appearance, as well.) Great job,...
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anxiety over today’s monthly weigh-in
(Trigger warning: eating disorders and eating disorder behaviors.) As long-time readers of the blog know, I had been in and out of eating disorder treatment for four years to combat my decade-long...
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update: anxieties over today’s monthly weigh-in
I did it, guys! I resisted looking at my weight! (If you’re thinking “What the hell is this crazy girl talking about?”, check out my previous post.) My blue ribbon for the day! During my appointment, I...
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